It is still the same after so many years. Looking back, it has been 5 long years since it happened. I am not sure exactly when it did, but I am very sure it did.
How do I know?
Because I am the only one in it.
The furthest distance from you is when I am standing next to you. The furthest one so far was when I was standing next to you at the airport. Really.
Years back, I scroll for your name on that list of MSN of mine. Even till now, I am still scrolling for your name on that long list of MSN on mine. I am not sure either, but it is always such a mixed emotion when I see you online. One of desire and disgust.
I feel like one side of a pair of chopstick, always a pair, but never together. So oriental. We are.
But. I think for the good of all of us, it is really time to move on.
Now that a new chapter is beginning, or at least I hope it is. I can't belive I did this but, all I did was smile.
I hope the sun raises from this dawn this time.
I stepped on dog shit this morning.
I was in my office, happily eating my breakfast when the first whiff of dog shit hit me. Initially, I thought it was the noodles I was having.
I went:
'JIA LAT! WHAT AM I EATING!?'
Then I realised that the smell smell too distinctively like dog shit to be coming from the noodles.
I lifted my feet and to my horror, I saw some brown substance stuck between some leaves stuck on the sole of my shoe. I then went out and did what all dogs do to clean their legs.
Vigourously scrapping my foot on the grass field to get rid of the vile substance.
This was when my colleague walked by me with her ear phones plugged in and with a look of bewilderment on her face.
'Dwirt must have finally lost it.'
Its been a while since I have came back to this blog space of mine, not that I was that busy (though it was a major contributing factor), I just felt I had something else better to do. Like Eat, Sleep or even Shit.
Why are they in Caps?
Hmm...
I am now thinking how to link showing photos of my trip to what I have written above. Oh what the heck, here they are:
Was waiting for a colleague to pick me up for an event when I took this:
And then there was this birthday surprise for one of our colleagues:
So there you have it.
I was doing all this (refering to the photos) before I stepped on dog shit.
Oh bother.
Artist: 光良 Michael
Album: 不会分离 Never Apart
03.I Miss You
为何最后总是来不及
相信有一天变成过去
现在分开无所谓
就当一首短短插曲
我不害怕
反正不会太差
有时候需要放下
才能看见向前的步伐
放手总带不走一些牵挂
一些忘不掉的牵挂
Oh because I miss you
Yes I miss you
想你在心里种出一棵大树
Yes because I miss you
要走的不能抓的住
我也很想告诉我自己
不能哭
Yes I miss you
有一天我不会在你掌心
紧紧握住
我们的幸福
我把所能给的全都付出
我很满足
我想有一个美好结果
为何最后总是来不及
相信有一天变成过去
现在分开无所谓
就当一首短短插曲
我不害怕
反正不会太差
有时候需要放下
才能看见向前的步伐
放手总带不走一些牵挂
一些忘不掉的牵挂
Oh because I miss you
Yes I miss you
想你在心里种出一棵大树
Yes because I miss you
要走的不能抓的住
我也很想告诉我自己
不能哭
Yes I miss you
有一天我不会在你掌心
紧紧握住
我们的幸福
我把所能给的全都付出
我很满足
就算眼泪快要夺眶而出
我会忍住