An early birthday present from my colleague....auntie O. ^^
Maple is down for patching again. And for the many many times, they fail to put the game back on server by the promised time. What to do? The game is free in the sense so cannot complain.
I have decided to visit my blog again but quite blank at what to write. The next few evenings will be quite packed with gatherings and a wedding. Perhaps this will be a good break from killing mobs. My eyes are also suffering from too much radiation, from 9am to 12am. Thats a hell lot of hours.
Heartstring, well it is funny how i got 2 back this week, one involving this girl who had heated debate over msn, another a friend who lost contact for sometime. It feels good catching up with friends who appreciate you.
There was another heartstring which I think will leave fate to decide it all. As one of my ex-colleague who encouraged me in all times of difficulty : "船到桥头自然直"
Ok..time for my tired eyes to have some early rest. Zzzzz
Something is seriously wrong with me. My sub-conscious seems to be troubled by some things, even though i try not to think about it.
Thats the trouble with me. I am too softhearted where certain matters are concern, and always getting hurt unnecessarily.
Nonetheless, been spending quite a bit on luxuries lately too, buying things which i would never think about at least a year ago, but heck......retail therapy does a good job to kill your wondering thoughts. And pumps my adrenalin.
Otherwise, I am back at chionging levels in Maplestory. Its intoxicating i tell ya.
Okie, more healthy is preparing for my Final Driving Theory Exam. Planning to start my practical in July after i passed this. One step at a time ba... Enrolling in the school is seriously quite costly, and they really suck your savings out of you.
And just for fun and personal satisfaction, probably doing my music performance degree once i pass driving. Wah, but still a bit far stretch leh....this will get me preparing at least for 2 years.
After that...dun know what else to do. Heck la...think about it later...whats the point planning now when things will and keep changing? Ya, also to start running in the office gym this week, need an outlet to release steam before i go crazy.
For now...immediate goal is to level up my Maple char this evening. Just 25% to go nia.... 
I read the newspaper this morning and came across an interesting article with a familiar photo. Further reading confirmed my suspicions. It is indeed the face of someone i know.
Funny how he gets himself involved with the law. Although i do not really know him well, he certainly does not appear to me as someone who is likely to commit a crime in a moment of folly, especially considering he was an ex army officer during ns and also muscially talented. But apparently he did.
Perhaps he was using his own professional judgement during his course of duty, but unfortunately this costs him his career. Regardless it was intentional or not.
One must really be careful when dealing with others at work. It is always good to seek support from somewhere, be it your colleagues or supervisor before making an important decision. If it burns, at least you are not alone. My ex-boss ever commented that I should be more "daring" to make decisions on my own but i do not agree. Rather, yes we can make decisions where we know confidently that it will not haunt us, but i certainly do not want to step on mines which are hidden along the way.
And importantly, always draw a line between you and your customers.
Howie Kaus ~~~
The toilet just ran out of paper.
I had finished my business when I turned to my left and that damn brown cupboard thing starred back at my blank face.
Damn!!! The options available were (a) use the cupboard? (b) wear back my pants and pretend nothing happen? (c) Call for help
Obviously i had to call for help! And of course, with much laughter from the entire office. Thank goodness the bloody toilet door has the ventilation louvers at the bottom. Seriously, I do not know what to do if my handphone was not with me. (Maybe run to next door with hope that will not bump into anyone?)
Wah kaoz.
Been feeling like this for the past few days:
(1) I know that i am wrong to do this, but i am right about this
(2) I know this is impossible, but i am still hoping for the possible.
(3) I know what you are trying to say, but i may not really know.
(4) I may appear happy, but i am sad.
(5) I want to be punctual for work, but i am still late.
(6) I want to shout out loud, but i am keeping quiet.
(7) I need a grip on myself, but i am still losing sense at times.
(8) I got a lot to say, but i am still speechless.
(9) I am expecting the unexpected; but unexpect the unexpect to arrive so soon.
(10) I want this to work, but it is not working.
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Other ironies? :
Driving theory is ONz this coming friday. Got to pass this. I do not foresee owning a car in the near future, but i think the skill will come in handy. Who knows?
Even voluntary work has exit interview, ok? Got to meet the commander this coming friday too..feeling rather stress actually. Did not expect the big BOSS to come all the way from HQ to just talk to me. Seriously, i am not sure how this interview will end up. For one, they seem pretty much accepted my resignation....but on the other hand, why the need to have this one-to-one interview?
My VOX is going ku-ku. Sometimes it can be loaded, yet at times it behaves in a most erratic manner by giving me wrong alignment, white boxes, funny characters. It was giving me problems just 3 days ago, and it is alright suddenly. Maybe it is time for me to change my theme soon. Anyway why bother when noone will read my blog? I am talking to myself probably all the time.
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Questions and questions, yet so few answers...
Are answers what we constantly seek? Or it is the questions that we want to ask even though we know the answers?
Should I xxxxxxxxxx ?
What if I xxxxxxxxx ?
Would I even be xxxxxxx ?
Do you think I xxxxxxxxx ?
How come xxxxxxxxxxxx ?
Perhaps we should xxxxx ?
Why xxxxxxxxxxxxx ?
(1) Wondering why so many people believe in zodiac and horoscope? Well there is certainly some truth to it. I got most of the traits found in taurus, though there are few which i beg to differ. (Maybe its because i was born towards the end of the sign?) But really i am almost 80% close to it.
(2) Following (1), its obvious that one of my music acquaintance does not know me well enough. I do not think she will bother reading my blog but since that little argument we had, we should regard each other as acquaintance instead. (Sorry gal, i cannot give what you seek.)
(3) Funny how one defines the meaning of close friend.
(4) Work sucks but i promise to grumble less. I seem to be rather quick-tempered lately and will whack my points across to the top management when i felt that something is not right. Well, at least i've made my point and if things don't work out, please do not blame the workers doing the bloody job. I really wonder how some people can change decisions as though ripping the toilet paper off the roll when so much effort was put in to come out with a decision in the first place by everyone. (I welcome all good constructive suggestions, but people should avoid making a decision hastely without consulting or respecting others..especially if it impacts the entire organisation).
(5) I quit my volunteer job after much pondering. Sent the carefully drafted email out last evening, but surprisingly, no phone calls yet! Hmm....either (a) the mail went to the junk folder (b) in the midst of discussing why i am quitting (c) cannot be bothered attitude (d) play dumb until i call (e) send to higher authorites for approval? (f) none of the above....
(6) I think i am hook to VOX....damn. Having said this, WA! this is my first longest post in VOX!
